You may have misunderstood my post. I simply thought it came across as "feel sorry for me for what I've seen and done". You have to have a certain mental toughness before taking this job if your taking it for the right reasons. You may have problems if you took the job to get a paycheck tell your friends "I'm the Police" and find a cush job. It would be like a surgeon complaining because he/she has to deal with bloody bodies. Oh well we will just have to agree to disagree. Yes I will take a hug