I think u r mental. I have never once in 20 plus years went home worrying if I did something wrong. It's not hard to follow policy. You come to work...make your runs... handle your run... turn ur mic on traffic stops and code 3 runs....download video.... read and sign off on policy....send ur I-leads up to level 2.... check ur businesses and neighborhoods....make arrest, write tickets CALL OFF ON EVERYTHING (play the game) and HAVE FUNNNNNN which us what I do everyday! It's really that simple